24

Desperately, I call out your name,
To see if you'll come back around,
How can it be that it won't work,
Nothing can change reality.

Secretly, I crave to see you again,
That beautiful face, beautiful piercing eyes,
Silky long, shining hair.
Your brilliant features, no rival I find.

Carefully, I carry on forward,
Looking back to the memories,
Remembering the time we shared,
How I wish I could do it all again.

Safely, I treasure everything you gave,
The photos, the memories, all that reminds me,
All I need to stay in touch,
It's like you never went away.

Endlessly, I hold my pendant close,
Partners forever we said,
One for you, one for me,
Together taking on the world.

Sweetly, the thoughts of you,
Kiss my mind, like everytime you kissed my cheek,
Everytime we said hello,
Everytime we said goodbye.

Nervously, I look to a future without you,
Fondly, I remember every step we walked,
Calmly, I settle back down,
Lovely, are my dreams of you.

23

Now all I see is darkness,
No clarity for the future,
No clarity for the present,
The only thing I see clear,
Is the past blinding my sight.

What is it that will stop that light,
I need to step past it,
I need a new light to shine,
One to follow,
One to lead me forward.

So come on,
Shine that light for me,
Show me a new path to walk
Say that you need me,
Say that I can be yours.

22

Money means everything to you,
Buying clothes, buying make-up,
Buying books, buying music,
Money make your world go round.

Money can buy you anything,
Money can makes you happy,
But happiness has it's own price,
The price is reality.

Happiness is the ultimate price to pay,
No one here for you,
Nobody to care for you,
Money can't buy friends.

If money buys you everything,
Can you buy me a single second?
A single second,
For me to spend with you.

21

Waiting for the moment to come,
That moment that will connect our hearts,
The moment that will stop the earth spinning,
Just that single second.

One second is all it takes,
Can you give me that one second?
To make our worlds collide,
To light the spark to start the fire.

So come on, what's the wait?
A fear of being loved again,
A fear of seeing truth,
Move past your fear,
So come on my dear,
Let love be unchained.

20

Into free fall we go,
Life resumes it's course,
Down we go,
Falling, falling,
Destined to fall together,
Destined to love,
Destined to live.

Invaded by the liars,
Intruded on by the haters,
Split apart by the fakers,
False nobodies,
They got to you,
Can I make see the truth?

Don't be stupid,
You got what was coming,
A lie for the liar,
Hang on - no.
That isn't fair.
A lie that ruined us,
Over the small lies I forgave.

Why does it have to be this way?

19

One day your world will fall,
One day I will watch everything burn,
Everything you know will fall to pieces,
Everything you touch will turn to ash.

Something tells me you don't realise,
Nobody speaks, nobody stares,
Everybody avoids, everybody walks on by,
No fact can change the fiction you live.

One day you'll find pain,
One day you'll sit beside me,
And watch your world burn,
Cos i'll be right here,
Holding your hand.

18

Wishing that tomorrow's sun never rises, wishing that I could stay asleep in this beautiful dream, everything is so clear here, it's like everything has been forgotten and purity reigns free. But my dream is over, the autumn sunlight pours through my open blind, a voice saying "come on, it's time to go."

All day long I see everything that is wrong with today, but the saddest thing is we are powerless to prevent what we see, all I hope for is that when I sleep tonight, I'll have my dream again, and be safe from evil.

The evil that came with you.

17

I never meant it to be this way, never meant to leave you standing outside, in the pouring rain, never meant to make this hurt so much. A rumbling sound from deep inside my bag, a call, you say that you don't understand, but why is it so hard to comprehend that I can't feel the same about you, please just go, you're causing me so much pain and you probably don't realise it. It wasn't easy for me to tell you that I can't be with you, you've been an amazing friend for so long now, you came at me from nowhere, why aren't you surprised that I said no?

16

Sitting here, can't deicide, is love for real? Or just an invention? They say that true love always comes, but what about when true love leaves? The pain they all must feel, can I deal with that, at the tender age of seventeen? You say you love me, but do you really know what love is? You're no older than me, so as I stand here, with these thoughts running through my mind, I really have no clue...

15

Like the ticking of a clock, tick-tock, like the rain that hits my wondow, pitter-patter, the words you whispered in my ear, echo round and round, spinning crazy, it just won't stop, echo...echo...you love me

14

Carefree they call me, as I stumble through the hordes of people walking past, but my parents look on in anguish, wishing I wasn't the way I am. How little they know how much my life torments me, the living hell they've created, it's all just a front you see, I'm not carefree, I live in fear of what comes next, what is in that next second on the clock, the clock I wish would stand still, just for a second.

13

Deep inside I buried my feelings, without knowing that every day from then on, I would see you pass me by, swaying side to side, in that way that tempts me so. You could never be mine my mind tells me, that's why I buried my feelings, but my heart, oh how it beats when you say my name, when you shoot me a glance, oh how good it feels you know I exist. Ridiculous my mind says, she doesn't know you.

12

Curled up in bed she sleeps away the pain, but in the morning nothing will have changed. Everything was fine one month before, one month before he took everything and shattered it with that fateful kiss. Nothing can change what is done she tells herself, move forward, be strong, but so much is in her way. Little does she know, what awaits her next.